So, I've been slacking. its a shame i want to do this little challenges, but i'm such a scatterbrain, i always forget....
These past few days have actually been quite wonderful. road trip on friday, girls' "date" night tonight... lots and lots of catching up... i absolutely love my friends. they are such amazing people. but all the while I just don't feel like myself. For whatever reason. Maybe I'm lonely, maybe I'm just full of self-pity. Maybe I'm just reconsidering and re-evaluating way too many aspects of my life. Who knows?... There is so much running through this brain of mine... And I'm simply not thrilled with where my thoughts are leaving me. Lost and confused. Not very comforting. It can't be natural to feel this unsure about things... Not after this long. Ugh. I wish things could be simple and clean-cut sometimes. Life's funny, isn't it?
Anywho, enough with all of that... On to the challenge...
Day 7 ~ If you were trapped on a desert island, who would be with you & what limited 2 items would you two have?
Hmm... The hubs, of course, would be with me. I'm going to assume construction supplies and a boat are off-limits. So... hunting gear? a fishing pole, insect repellent?
Day 8 ~ Describe your perfect date...
If I happened to be back on the dating scene, as great as the whole "romantic dinner & a movie" sounds to some people, it sounds blahhh to me. I want to enjoy what we do. I want something different -- something that brings out our personalities and what we enjoy, who we are... So, simply, something exciting -- anything non-cliche.
Day 9 ~ Write the differences between you and your best friend....
Its very simple. I'm very quiet & reserved. My bestie is all but that. Our values are the same as well as most of our standpoints. She is very secure, I am not. She has her head on straight, mine continously spins out of control... I'm sure you are seeing the pattern here...
Night all.
really wish this feeling would go away. i know i do NOT need to read too deep into anything. bc everything i'm thinking it is, more than likely its not. deployments are like this. communication sucks sometimes. he's going through stuff, i'm going through stuff, sometimes its just brief and lackthereof. it just hurts. i'd just prefer anything over this. :(
Today has been one of those blah, emotional type days. I had my ultrasound this morning with the company of my wonderful & amazing father & best friend. It showed our lil munchkin to be doing wonderful :) He's so active & as silly as it sounds, seeing him bouncing around in my belly, he already reminds me of his daddie. I am so thankful for the support system I have here. Never I am truely alone -- I was blessed with specific individuals in my life who are always by my side... However, today, laying on that table in that room, the blue-goo pasted on my belly, I felt a little beside myself. Granted, I always feel an overwhelming burst of happiness/giddiness when I see my little man, just today something was missing. Someone. Some days are easier than others. I can pretend he is just away or whatever helps at that time, but days like today, his absence is hard. Going through this pregnancy without him physically by my side hurts. I wish more than anything that he was here. It would make things so much better... But enough with that... Things such as this as those that I cannot change... I can't dwell on the fact that he isn't here, I can only be thankful that he is somewhere & that we are allowed to communicate -- that counts for something, right?
Well, anyways, for a change of subject... Another new little thing I found... Go over to http://www.myleighashley.com/ & link up :) Her page is pretty cute as well!!
{one} How often do you do laundry?
Back when the hubs was home & I was on a normal routine, usually about once a week. Now that it is just me & of course, once lil man makes his grand appearance, I'm sure all of that will change.
{two}What is your favorite type of cookie?
Omg... I am craving cookies now!!! I loooooove cookies :) All different kinds, shapes, & sizes, but my all time favorite has to be the good ol original ooey gooey choco chip :)
{three}What would you do with an extra 2000 a month?
Save it. Pay off whatever bills that needed to be paid off & after that, in the bank it would go.
{four}What is/was your favorite subject in school?
If you count the "extra" courses you were allowed to take, photography was my fave :) but out of the normal curriculam, English. I didn't mind to read & all of the other stuff just came naturally to me. Or History. I'm a big history nut, well, I guess I wouldn't go as far as to say that, but I certainly never cared to learn about past events. Life back in the day always interested me.
{five}Have you ever ridden in a hot air balloon?
This would be a no. However, I would absolutley LOVE to!!! If given the chance, the hubs and I will definitley have to at some point.
{six}What was your high school mascot?
Black panther
{seven}If you had the chance to go into space, would you?
The idea of going into space in THEORY is awesome & I would love to, but in reality, no. Not only does it take FOREVER to get into space, the process is actually very hard on a human being. And I'm not a skeptic, but what if something happened once you got there? Ran out of fuel or crashed? I don't think so.... lol.
{eight}How often do you go dancing?
Never! I'm actually disappointed because. Hubs isn't big on the bar scene nor the club scene. And the VERY few times we do go out, other guys always seem to be a little inappropiate or grabby with me (I do NOT provoke it, just to throw that out there...) & well, you simply get the picture..
{nine}Would you rather drive or fly?
DRIVE!!! Loooooong drives and the music blaring from the radio, there is NOTHING like it. Not to mention the scenery along the way!! Granted it takes twice as long, but during that extra time is where you make the most memories!!
{ten}Have you ever been caught re-gifting?
Never have I re-gifted!!
Name somebody you would like to trade lives with for a day and why.
My great-grandmother Munsell. She was an incredible woman who lived for her family. She endured so much during her lifetime -- physical and emotional abuse, hard life on the farm, the great depression.... However, she expressed so much strength. I feel so weak at times simply by being so alone but my life is nowhere near as bad as it could be. Women, like my great-grandmother, who go through more than any human being ever should have to, and decide not to let it bring them down and allow themselves to still thrive inspire me. If only I could obtain that strength and courage. She was a remarkable woman.
Hmm... today I really don't have any vents or well, much to say. It has been one of those not-so-good, not-so-bad, in-between days. Got to facebook chat with my amazing hubs tho, that was definitley a plus :) Its so crazy how a single individual can make your entire morning light up just simply by talking to you -- even over an im screen :)
30 day challenge - Day 4
What was the last movie you watched? Write about it.
Ok. So most of you will think I'm silly. I just got back from my bestie's house & we like to have our little "disney" nights. Therefore, the last movie I watched was The Rescuers Down Under. lol. As I kid, it seems like I was deprived of so many disney movies. Heck, I had never seen Cinderella until a couple of months ago & thats a classic haha. Anywho, there's not much to go into on what it was about hence its a cartoon -- a little boy gets kidnapped so a bird & 3 little mice go to rescue him. They rescue him. The end :)
I do believe I am going to call it a night. One day down this week, 6 more to go :)
