Monday, May 10, 2010

Holding Your Scarred Heart In Hand, Its All The Same..

Choices. They are so much easier to determine when somebody else makes the decision for you. Its always easier if you have somebody else telling you what you should do. Life, however, does not work that way. Nobody can choose how you should live your life or who you should live it with. Only you know what truely makes you happy and what will not. You are the only person who can makes those little decisions that will play out your life, whether its simple or difficult. You have to be your own person and not rely on other people's imput to put the finishing touches on what you do.

***And I'll take you for who you are, if you'll take me for everything...**

Its such a relief to know that I'm not the only person feeling so.. alone and lonely. I received 2 letters from him today. I've never smiled so big at receiving mail. I can't believe that we are so alike. More than half of what I have written to him but have yet to sent, he spelled out in all of his letters. Its nice to have somebody that you have common ground with. We've always had a communication problem. He gets mad easily and lets the entire world know how he feels when he's angry or hurt. I close up and keep everything to myself. Its not a good mix in a relationship. But we are making so much headway now. And its just getting better. Its insane how some really good advice/help from a really great friend fixed all of that. I've learnt to focus on what is important. There is always going to be problems in a relationship. Its when you quit fighting and let those problems overrule your relationship that you've failed. You lose focus on why you were ever together. And when you reach that point and your too stubborn to get over shit and let it go, that you need to simply realize that its over. I'm glad we surpassed all of that.

**I don't mind, I don't care.. As long as your here..**