Tuesday, November 13, 2012

I'm taking it day by day. Cherishing every GOOD thing that happens. Focusing on the POSITIVE of everyday. I want to make my marriage work. I want to have a happy, healthy family for my son. Maybe if I back off just a little bit and not focus on every little thing that upsets me, brush off the things that need to be brushed off, all of us will be happier and in a better place.

I am anxiously awaiting my acceptance packet for school. The days are draaaagging by slower and slower as I wait for the mail. (funny how time slows when you are waiting for something.) This is the first time in a long time that I've felt proud of myself. I have put off school for so long, whether it be because of moving or some excuse. I am just ready to get my degree and have a career. I'm ready to be a mother my son can be proud of.

The holidays are approaching so quickly this year. Actually, I guess its safe to say, as they do every year. So much shopping to get done and I don't even know where to begin!! It is going to be wonderful, though, getting to be a family this year. Little monkey will have his daddy here this year :)

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Its almost here. This past year is just about over. Did I honestly see myself making it to this point? I knew I would get through it. As a army wife that is what you do - push, press, deal, and "get" through life without your husband by your side. But I thought I would be more prepared for his homecoming. For the reality that will set in after he has been home and the new-ness is gone. The thought of it actually terrifies me as much as it excites me. He left simply me. He's coming back to a family and a life I've had to establish while he was away. The last thing I want to sound like is ungrateful or selfish. I want my husband home. If I had things my way, he would be walking through my front door at this very moment in time. However, we have both changed. We have both been through a lot this year. How will our communication be? Open or restricted? We do not get to speak much now. We only discuss daily topics - general things. Nothing in depth. No worries, hopes, dreams, fears, emotions... Am I silly to be worried? Things should simply fall into place, right? But will they?